“Do you believe in destiny? That even the powers of time can be altered for a single purpose? That the luckiest man who walks on this earth is the one who finds… true love?”

~Bram Stoker’s Dracula.

Sometimes the only thing getting me out of bed in the morning, is remembering to take the pills that are supposed to help me want to get out of bed..

And when you dream of being the drug addict you try so hard every day not to become, is that a nightmare? or a wish your heart makes?



Just some thoughts i wake up with..

“I am likely to miss the main event
If i stop to cry or complain again
So i will keep a deliberate pace
Let the damned breeze dry my face.”

~fiona apple.

“I’ll be your mirror
Reflect what you are, in case you don’t know
I’ll be the wind, the rain and the sunset
The light on your door to show that you’re home

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you’re twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
‘Cause i see you

I find it hard to believe you don’t know
The beauty that you are
But if you don’t let me be your eyes
A hand in your darkness, so you won’t be afraid

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you’re twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
‘Cause i see you

I’ll be your mirror.”

“I’m gonna find my way to the sun
If i destroy myself, i can shine on.”

~bush.
“Take these shoes
click clacking down some dead end street
Take these shoes
and make them fit.
Take this shirt
polyester white trash made in nowhere
Take this shirt
and make it clean.
Take this soul
stranded in some skin and bones
Take this soul
and make it sing.
Take these hands
teach them what to carry
Take these hands
dont make a fist.
Take this mouth
so quick to criticise
Take this mouth
give it a kiss.
Take this city
a city should be shining on a hill
Take this city
if it be your will.
What no man can own, no man can take
Take this heart
and make it break.”

~U2

“Where did your long hair go
Where is the girl i used to know
How could you lose that happy glow
Oh caroline, no

Who took that look away
I remember how you used to say
You’d never change, but that’s not true
Oh caroline, you

Break my heart
I want to go and cry
It’s so sad to watch a sweet thing die
Oh caroline, why

Could i ever find in you again
Things that made me love you so much then
Could we ever bring ‘em back once they have gone
Oh caroline, no.”

“Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.”

~Holden Caulfield.
Me and my shadow.

Me and my shadow.

if every piercing i got bled like that, i would never cut myself again.